Bitterness
I think I might need time to be by myself once again. Yes, it's that time again, where I feel the need to get away from it all and just concentrate on myself.
I have been seeing and hearing many negative things lately and this brings me to 1 conclusion, there is so much bitterness everywhere, even among my group of friends.
WARNING: If any of my friends come across this blog, I caution you that this may bring some unwanted feelings and therefore I ask of you to read this with an open heart. Afterall, this is MY blog and I have a right to put anything and everything I feel and think. You have been warned!
Was at Cin's hens nite earlier. Didn't wanna go because of 2 reasons. 1 is because I have no more money. My company is yet to issue our cheque and seeing as the Deepavali and Hari Raya is next week, I will not be able to get my money until the 2nd week of November. This is just so sad as I am so broke and i have never in my whole life felt like this before. No matter how bad the situation is, I always had money for rainy days. Anyways, back to Cin's hen nite. 2nd reason being that my ex's sister is 1 of Cin's bestfriend and I knew that she was gonna be there. I didn't like the feeling of awkwardness but Cin insisted that there would be nothing and that I have to go.
So, I went, with G, Hammie, Meow and Pink. There was indeed awkwardness but not between Carmen (my ex's sis) and me, but it was between Cin's other friends and my group. We just didn't click. Maybe it's because it's the 1st meeting and the group was big, hard to socialize. It was also because neither groups tried to socialize with each other, they kept to themselves and we kept to ourselves. All in all, I didn't think it was all too bad but my friends did. Yes, the place was a bit too small and hence stuffy, we didn't get along and there was only water (which was not much) or alcohol to drink. There were many downsides to it but there were upsides as well, they did try to make an effort to make things work. We were welcomed with warm greetings even though they didn't get along. The food was homecooked but at least they tried. It was partly our fault for not informing them that we will not staying long and joining them clubbing and it was also kinda wrong to leave so early, not playing their game (it's like we were chickening out).
I admit that I am a bitchy person but when I heard the others bitching non-stop, I got a bit annoyed. What's done is already done and there's no point bitching about it. Maybe we could make a better party than them, by learning from their mistakes. I'm pretty sure that Cin's other friends think that we're stuck-up, snobby bitches, just like how we preceive them as prim and proper, rich girls.
What is the world coming to? With all this bitterness and negativity around. It's like as if people has come to embrace the ugly side of life instead of thinking about the more prettier part of life. I think it's because of this that we all die young or wanna try to die young because we're fed up with life. This is also the cause for everyone to have problems and be more burdened by it each day. If only everyone can think positively, we would all be happy bunnies.
I have been seeing and hearing many negative things lately and this brings me to 1 conclusion, there is so much bitterness everywhere, even among my group of friends.
WARNING: If any of my friends come across this blog, I caution you that this may bring some unwanted feelings and therefore I ask of you to read this with an open heart. Afterall, this is MY blog and I have a right to put anything and everything I feel and think. You have been warned!
Was at Cin's hens nite earlier. Didn't wanna go because of 2 reasons. 1 is because I have no more money. My company is yet to issue our cheque and seeing as the Deepavali and Hari Raya is next week, I will not be able to get my money until the 2nd week of November. This is just so sad as I am so broke and i have never in my whole life felt like this before. No matter how bad the situation is, I always had money for rainy days. Anyways, back to Cin's hen nite. 2nd reason being that my ex's sister is 1 of Cin's bestfriend and I knew that she was gonna be there. I didn't like the feeling of awkwardness but Cin insisted that there would be nothing and that I have to go.
So, I went, with G, Hammie, Meow and Pink. There was indeed awkwardness but not between Carmen (my ex's sis) and me, but it was between Cin's other friends and my group. We just didn't click. Maybe it's because it's the 1st meeting and the group was big, hard to socialize. It was also because neither groups tried to socialize with each other, they kept to themselves and we kept to ourselves. All in all, I didn't think it was all too bad but my friends did. Yes, the place was a bit too small and hence stuffy, we didn't get along and there was only water (which was not much) or alcohol to drink. There were many downsides to it but there were upsides as well, they did try to make an effort to make things work. We were welcomed with warm greetings even though they didn't get along. The food was homecooked but at least they tried. It was partly our fault for not informing them that we will not staying long and joining them clubbing and it was also kinda wrong to leave so early, not playing their game (it's like we were chickening out).
I admit that I am a bitchy person but when I heard the others bitching non-stop, I got a bit annoyed. What's done is already done and there's no point bitching about it. Maybe we could make a better party than them, by learning from their mistakes. I'm pretty sure that Cin's other friends think that we're stuck-up, snobby bitches, just like how we preceive them as prim and proper, rich girls.
What is the world coming to? With all this bitterness and negativity around. It's like as if people has come to embrace the ugly side of life instead of thinking about the more prettier part of life. I think it's because of this that we all die young or wanna try to die young because we're fed up with life. This is also the cause for everyone to have problems and be more burdened by it each day. If only everyone can think positively, we would all be happy bunnies.
posted by ms3Gem at 10/30/2005 02:08:00 AM
1 Comments:
Well, I do admit that we were bitching too much just now, but it guess it's just our prerogative to say what we dislike about things. Your post had got me thinking on why we bitch about things like we do and came to realize it's only because we are just too honest about what we feel. Think about it. I feel bad that we had to leave early and I would hate it if any of my friends would leave like we did in MY party but then again I cannot force people into doing things I do not like.
And no, I am not offended~ :p
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